Leading up to a final follow-up visit to the pediatrician for my son's prior mentioned illness, I was expecting to feel calm, relieved, and a sense of completion, based on my recent feelings on the ordeal.
WHAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED
Parking Lot: Plenty of available parking
Waiting Room Toys: Cool
Partner: Calmly reading food magazine
Doctor: Freshly shaven with hair product
My Son, Atticus: Cooperative
I don't know.
Maybe I was tired.
Maybe I would have felt anxious no matter what I was doing.
THE POINT IS...
It can be confusing, unsettling, and lead to further anxiety when expectations differ from reality, which is most of the time in my experience. Perhaps lowering expectations is an act of self-care.